Saturday, May 19, 2012

Dictionary Experiences

Have you heard the expression, "It's like throwing millions of letters up in the air and they fall perfectly into place to form the dictionary"? There have been two times in my life, that I can remember, where a dictionary has been formed from millions of letters thrown into the air. Let me share these two dictionary experiences.

The previous summer I had just barely passed my grueling graphic design portfolio. It was a pass or fail (failing would discredit your two years of hard work and set you back as a blank college major. I had passed, but still in my stomach, all summer long, I felt unsure. I was sitting my fall graphic design class, and it finally hit me like a nerf arrow in-between my eyes; "I don't want to be a graphic designer." I had thought I wanted to be a designer, but that unsureness I had felt was reality telling me what I wasn't able to see myself. I called my Mom, Dad, siblings and best friend. I explained my thought process and desire to drop the design major. It was one week later and I had officially changed my major to political science, registered as a pre-education major, and was set on what should have been my path all along, teaching. 

I usually like concrete courses, full of planning and details. So a sudden life altering change for myself was unprecedented. What was even stranger was my calm and resoluteness of the whole situation!

Then, a week ago, it happened again. Words, dictionary and all.

I got a new roommate two months ago. There were some small things that bothered me about him, such as his complaining I was talking to a friend instead of him when I was on the phone. The night before my week long cruise, we came to a head on the security deposit he had agreed to pay before he moved in. It put me out $325 to cover his portion, but what was worse is he wasn't willing to sign an agreement saying I would get the full $650 (of which all was mine) when we moved out. Luckily I managed to stay away from the thoughts of the argument while I was away on the trip. When I got back, I spoke to my parents and they suggested I move home. Within a weeks time, I had gone through a similar process like the graphic design major, and arrived at a new point in my life. 

Living at home with the parents isn't glamours. Trust me I know. But there are some significantly beneficial things that will come with the one con. I will be moving back in with my parents while I finish up my last two-ish years at college. I will be purchasing my VERY FIRST car! I'm currently looking at a Scion XD. I will be getting out of the health care industry and will get a job working in government or politics (to build up my resume for my eventual career). Even with a brand new car payment, insurance and gas to commute to school, I will be saving about $200 from all my bills living in Portland. 

I feel so good about this decision, and feel calm and resolute, even though my own natural self would most likely be freaking out right now.